sorry.

so...first..my apologies to the blogging world..i have not kept up to my end of the deal of trying to blog at least once a week.

why?

its been a wierd couple of weeks. lots of things have come and gone...lots of insights, people, happenings, and events.

right now i am in a different place. i feel like my body is moving and i am going through life...but my mind is constantly outside looking around saying..."what the heck is going on?"


EGO
lets start with me...as all good things should.
learning your weaknesses is a good thing. recently i have been hit hard (as is what happens about every year and a half for me) with a realization that it is time to step it up a notch in my life. we have been in this church planting adventure for awhile now, it has been a force outside of myself that has gotten and driven us to the point where we are today. now, i feel like God is telling me its time to start doing some of my share. and its hard. i am trying to shape and create things within myself that i purposefully do not evoke. i am trying to be something that is very hard for me to be. its a tough balance.
half the time i feel like running and crying....which horrifies me because i need not to show that weakness.
the other half feels like i am always chasing the wind, trying to do things without any hope of acheiving them.

so...after all that...i am actually in a really good place right now. i feel connected, and once more i am enjoying my connection to the creator and listening to him and talking with him. he is always right there, as soon as i turn...its great.

i am a bit frustrated....but i am trying to Honor All Men.

Family
BarJustin is in a growing phase now. i am trying to be a strong father and teach him...but its hard at times. i have always loved and embraced the responsibility i have as a father, and i think i freakin rock at it....but lately he has been pushing hard and i am learning how to push back.

Church
our plant is moving...but in different ways than i thought. maybe moving isnt the best word, maybe shaping. it is shaping into what it needs to be.
we went to this CPAC assessment last week. it was very trying.
it told us a lot. it empowered us a lot. and it basically picked up our train car and put it on the right track for us.
i fully beleive that everything is happening just as it should...or maybe just as it is supposed to.

House
we are moving.
its very exciting, but very stressful for my wife.
we need renters. let me know if you are interested.

here is a video from our Assessment:



Social
i saw, who possibly may be one of our future presidents. Barack Obama speak at the University of Cincinnati

played Mandolin at an open mike at a bar this past weekend

Movies
i saw

The last King of Scotland
two thumbs way up. you need to see this movie.



Shooter
this was pretty good. it was what it was.

still dying to see


No Country For Old Men

and


There Will Blood


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